I lost a friend today. This is normal, I am not worried at all. There are many reasons why things didn’t work out but I choose to blame no one – not even myself. I’m a Sagittarius, and by that conjecture, I am always happy and never serious and things pass by quicker than I can to feel regret or loss.

Now I can’t even feel normal. I don’t know what normal. I am always either too sad or too angry at the fact that I let someone this good slip right through my fucking hands. I want to be okay with everything, I keep telling myself that, and I want to be okay with this entire fucking situation but I just can’t seem to wrap my head around how you left me without really saying why. And I don’t think you understand but every night I am merely just a husk of myself and I hate how pathetic I feel.