hi i'm either really sad and sappy, or i'm suddenly a 25 y/o adult with a mission to get her life together. i'm still 20 though, and sad and sappy but mildy responsible.

this is my diary
Get your emotions on track
8.22.2014 @ 03:57
I want to glue my feelings for you on my skin. I want you to see how much I hate you, and how nonchalant I am of how we are, but I don’t want to tell you that. I want you to think that I can’t stand you, and rot inside out thinking about it, than for me to tell you straight on that I hate the way you laugh.

You sound happy (and you shouldn’t be) and you talk to me about everyone else like as though I was the least interesting person in the world (and you shouldn’t have) and you cry to me about how bad your school is and how everyone in school is so hypocritical (you know I can’t handle emotions) and you keep telling me over and over and over again how you’d get better (which you haven’t, till date) and I keep telling you how unlucky I am to have met you because you throw all your emotions on me like as though I’m a sponge and you keep telling and teaching me how to make someone feel better and you keep trying to make me get excited over boys but I can’t and you expect so so much but I give and try so little and in some instances (like now) I don’t even know I if I should be thankful or regretful for having someone like you try so hard for me.

And when you called me at 2 in the morning crying, I shouldn't have gotten angry at you sorry I hope you read this and understand that I don't like sacrificing my sleep for silly things like that. 

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