hi i'm either really sad and sappy, or i'm suddenly a 25 y/o adult with a mission to get her life together. i'm still 20 though, and sad and sappy but mildy responsible.

this is my diary
thunder/storm
1.03.2015 @ 07:39

You are like thunder. You are nothing without sound. And what is thunder without sound anyway? You are loud, majestic, and you’ll scare everyone else except me. I like sound. You know I do.

And you are like rain. Not just any rain, but the kind that falls fast and heavy and blurs everything out. You’ll create a rhythm wherever you go, and it always varies. Sometimes I might have to tap tap tap SHOUT OVER YOU BUT tap THAT’S OKAY BECAUSE I KNOW tap tap YOU ARE MORE THAN JUST TAPS ON WINDOW PANES tap tap tap tap AND SOMETIMES WHEN THE TAPS BECOME HURRIED tap tap tap I KNOW BETTER THAN TO FEAR THE IMPENDING SIGNS tap taptaptap OF YOUR THUNDER STORM, tap tap because I know you are more than just a passing rain cloud and I ought to get used to it.

Your wind will be cold – not the harsh and skin-biting numbness kind, but more like cool air that sweeps past your forearm, and only to dance off the tips of your fingers. It’s the kind of lingering and yet oddly soothing chill you give that sends me into a frenzy of whether or not I should be thankful, or lonely.

The puddles you leave behind will look like bottomless pits. They have the depths of all the oceans combined, and you know I cannot swim. Your puddles are stationary, but they will only grow in size. If I’m not careful I might fall into one. It isn’t scary at all, trust me. The complete darkness in them is almost welcoming. I cannot trust myself to climb out of the puddles you have left behind because the fall is starting to feel like home.

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